I miss how good it felt

Day 16 of #30DayWritingChallenge is: Something you miss

I have been extremely sober. This has been good for me, fewer calories, few hangovers, fewer dollars spent, fewer cloudy decisions. And the truth is, I don’t really miss it. I don’t miss the drunken foolishness, the big spenders remorse, or the beastly hangovers. But I do miss that feeling that sometimes only liquor can give you.

I miss the slow burn of whiskey warming up my insides.  

I miss the instant fire that is tequila, scalding me and saving me at the same time. 

I miss how it consumed me completely. I miss how good it felt.

I swear I'm not an alcoholic, but yes, I miss it.