Highs & Lows

This is my last post for my #30DayWritingChallenge and the prompt is Highs and Lows for the month. This challenge has been cathartic to say the least, I’ve clearly already said a lot about my highs and lows throughout this month so I will try to keep this brief.

This month’s lows.
The low for the month, and in fact the year has been facing the absolute crumbling of my personal life.  I had no idea that subjecting myself and my family to a whirlwind of change would result in revealing cracks in my career, marriage, family life and sense of self, and then bursting them wide open.  This has involved having some extremely tough discussions about the past, present and future, and also coming to terms with my own mistakes and holding others to task for ways they've failed me. And lucky for me, we're not through it yet.

This month’s Highs.
The past month has been tough, and the future can only be better as a result.  The high for the month is that I stayed alive, and the kids have stay…

B&W | Self Portrait

Final #30DayPhotoChallenge post is a combination of last 2 days. Black & White, and Self Portrait.

My amazing and extremely talented friend Jenn Lemalu Photography took these extra portraits of me. She's amazing and she had me feeling and looking amazing in these. Thank you, sister!



Today was my first day at my new job. I listened to Kendrick Lamar’s “Be Humble” on the drive in, to prepare myself to be ready for anything. It was different from what I’m used to, I knew that obviously it would be. Bigger place, different lay of the land. It’s the same industry but different market, different segments from the ones I’m used to focusing on. The company is going through a merger, which is ironic because I just left a merger to join an even bigger one.

Something I found quite strange today was working in an environment where you don’t know everybody. I was introduced to a bunch of people but it was clear that you don’t even know everybody on your floor let alone in the company of 1300+ people. That’s quite a change from knowing just about everybody in the company and sister company by name, and knowing their families and seeing them at church, at the grocery story, etc.

I can see the job will challenge me in new ways than my old one, and I am excited at the prospect …

Flowers & Feels

Day 28 of the #30DayPhotoChallenge is: Flowers, I added the Feels.

Things that make me LOL

Day 28 of #30DayWritingChallenge is: Post five things that make you laugh out loud
Conversations with my kids, talking smack with my sister, and conversations with my extra friends or family members. There's just those people that you know can make you laugh, you know the ones.Champagne gives me the giggles. Alcohol in general puts me in the mood for a laugh. The TV Shows, “Whose Line Is It Anyway?” and old British comedies like “Fawlty Towers” and “Allo allo”. Witty funnies, and vids randomly shared on social mediaWhen the All Blacks or Australia lose in sports. Lol 

Xmas Lights

Day 27 of the #30DayPhotoChallenge is Celebration.

There hasn't been much of this, to be honest. This is the least celebrating I've done in the festive season, probably ever. December is usually a 31 day hangover for me so yea, it's different.

Last night though, the kids got to enjoy the Honolulu Christmas Lights. Here's some pics from the trip, and a bathroom selfie for good measure. Lol

Kick ass

Day 27 of #30DayWritingChallenge is: Conversely, write about something that is kicking ass right now.

It’s been the year of getting my ass kicked. It’s been the year of facing fears in just about every aspect of my life, career, mom life, marriage, health, self care. The truth is, I’m just grateful this year hasn’t killed me, not yet at least, there’s still 2 weeks left in the year.

Anyways, let's give this a whirl. Things that are kicking ass right now?

In spite of all my bitching and complaining, I can say that there are wins amongst the absolute fuckery of 2017. What’s going well.

1) Fighting fear and fighting for what I deserve. Being crazy stupid decisive enough to say, you know what, this is not serving me or growing me, I need to go. And then to go ahead and do that which terrifies me is something I’ve done this year. That in itself is a win, and it’s given me the resolve to keep doing it.

2) My fitspo. It’s all relative of course, I am kicking ass in this area compar…